Looking at the future with delight

Now a graduate , what's next ?

Completing my degree a semester earlier than expected sounded exciting a while ago.

A while ago, when the walls of my dreams were covered with this bright pink wallpaper and embellished with glitter. However, this excitement slowly faded away to give birth to this tremendous fear which embraces me every time I dare to think about the future. Yes ! I fear the future more than ever. The question what’s next, which has never appeared daunting to me was now a fortress I did not have the strength to confront. However, admitting this to myself had a big impact on how I see things. Realizing that I don't need to have everything figured out right now led me to convince my inner self that I needed to give myself a break and trust the process.

Let me tell you that for an 'organization-holic' of my type and someone who is used to have her life figured out and planned for years in advance, it was not easy. Yet, on the other hand, it removed a suffocating burden I had imposed on myself. Indeed, the more anxious I was, the more endless what ifs' questions prevented me from enjoying my present achievements and be as optimistic as I could. Trust me, nothing good comes out of this.

I was embedded in a perpetual circle of worries with the same questions : "What if I do not score well on my LSAT? what if I do not get into Law School? What if I do not have a job related to my major?…" what if? what if? what if? So many questions that only brought despair and doubt, I would rather stay away from. Don't get it twisted, I'm not saying that I'm not concerned about what the future holds for me anymore. Truly, who would feel safe if they were being offered the passenger seat in this crucial ride ? that can actually be compared to a Fast and Furious' scene, giving that you don't know where you are heading.

However,I have decided to look at the bright side of life. I'm still among the millennials, whom according to many, hold unrealistic expectations; I'm still the girl who had great plans for her life and who is now a woman ready to fight to make them become true; and I'm still the intellectual who believes that "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams” (Eleanore Roosevelt).

My plans and goals are clear, and even though the twist is that me reaching them does not only depend on how much work and effort I put in building my future, but on whomever sees my potential and decides to give me a chance; I'm ready to take up the challenge.

Finally, I’m looking at the future with delight and preparing myself for greater things while embracing any opportunity that knocks at the door.

Khady-Emilia D., your future employee